Aiyah...nothing to do la today..been slacking at home..waiting fer 9pm...Planning to to out and chill and clarke quay or somewhere with farezah ejah and all... till then im stuck at home..boredom...

Oh yeah..btw...Hello Azizah...How are you?? been hearing that u do check out my blog...hahahah..biler ada kat depan mata tak nampak...biler dah takder..masih nak tau hal orang.. well.. this is what blog is for...anyone is free to read..so ENJOY!!

At last..actually..after 10 days of courses and everyday going out..im soooo tired...today i can destress at home and relax..my pizza just arrived... mamam then lepakz some more.. hey muniya..sorry la gal..today i cant meet up with you...tomolo also... sorry babe...me got a bday party to attend....Vin's friend la..one day we go okay!!till then...dun miss me bebeh!!

Woot Wooottt..Wassup happening people....Wooot woooottt..


Wahhhh...At last my course is overrrr....I feel sad cause i wont see my gals and the counsellors and all..and I HAVE TO GO BACK TO WORK!! ARGHH!! I feel happy cause im getting abit exhausted going to and fro to Police Academy...


I learned alot during this 5 days..really really alot.. now the last step is i have to submit and essay on whatever we have learned and how we apply it and all.. I hope I can still crack my brain and write...



Well..yesterday night..Vin called and say lets meet up after my course la.. he wanted me to meet his fren venkat.. I went back home first...after the course..changed and everything..around 8 liddat..he came and fetched me.. we were suppose to meet venkat at Tekka..then suddenly Vin made a detour at the Hives.. and stop right infront of it..he told me his god sis was working there.. I have heard about her but never met her before..



Off the bike, i went in and got a shock..there she was... a pretty gal...and she looked damn familiar.. we sat down lepak lepak..make the place like our home like that.. after a while.. I learned that she is lecheemi from Prisons..we were in HTA together during our training.. god i had a good laugh..small world huh... So while waiting for Venkat to come.. i feel asleep on Vin..damn tired la.. had a long day... half way thru just lepak at the sofa...



Initially we had planned to go harbourfront to lepak...go to caribean.. but then lech proposed to follow her go simpang bedok for dinner and lepakz...Here comes the thrilling part...



Lech went with venkat.. i rode with my darling alladin.. Naughty Vin made a dare with Venkat to see who reach there first..and god damn it..he really SPED like CUHRAZY!! I was scared shitless..not used to riding mah.. Luckily I arrived in one piece...Pheww!! Arrived only...sat drank..happy happy..



I like Venkat.. nice chap.. I learned from alladin that he had been thru alot..well dear venkat.. i been thru alot too.. but we gotta be strong..we SINGLE people will unite and be happy okie!!
Lets plan for our trip soon!! Lets go holidays....



Haiz...life has been wonderful..and im happy...lepaking..making new frens... i trully feel happy... been so long.. okla.. will update more later on... Love u people...Oh yeah..BTW!!



I forgot to say..while i am typing this.. I am eating this pasta that Alladin cooked for me.. He actually cooked to bring to work and he made more for me to taste it..it has prawns and hot dog in it..and the verdict is.. ITS DELICIOUS!!!! I LOVE ITTTTT!!! I finished the whole thing.. didnt let my mother have more..lol... Vin.. cook more for me okie dear... hehehhehe..YUM YUM!!



[Dear Alladin, I appreciate the things your doing for me right now.. You are the best!!!]



Following are the photos I took during the course...ENJOY!!

People..if ur calling me or smsing me and you dun get response..here are the reasons why..

1) I am in class/work and I cant answer..

2) My phone battery dead as now my phone batt is giving me alot of problems..I practically have to carry the charger around my neck constantly

3) I dun think ur call or sms is impt to me at that moment of time but I will get back to you soon.

4) I dun want u in my life anymore.

5) STOP CALLING OR SMSING ALREADY!!!! AIYOOOO!!

Btw.. I changing my number soon.. lucky people will be informed shortly!~

Well.. Whats up... Hows life people??Good?? How are u muniya...How are u readers...whoever u are...


Me?? I haven been happier... First thing..lemme tell u something.. Im sure Munira will be screaming at me..Syera too.. Well.. I met up with reggie.. I was thinking...why not right..have some kinda closure..cause since we broke up...we didnt meet up...


So i went to see him... basically i think he looked horrible.. i dun like the new him.. but who am i to say.. I am a nobody now.. Basically.. all he talks about was how his life was going on which i am happy for him..and much about Kiran...kept yapping about Kiran..she this she that..so its good.. he has moved on... At the end of the meeting.. we hugged.. and went our seperate ways..So thats the end..he did expressed that he wants to get back with me and all..but i noe..its the end..and i think he is proposing to her on today or something.. i dunno.. good luck and all the best..so much fer not sleeping with her when they were in bangkok but pictures of ehemz..in bra could be seen..lol..funny world..


Other that tat..wondering why i have been missing for so long? I have been busssyyy... Bussy bussy.... Okie.... Here is what that has been happening... I haven been going to work lately..cause im on course.. I tried to apply for the Paracounsellor Cum Suicide Intervention Course and I got IN!! WOOHOO FOR ME!! So Anyways..here goes the one week of studying.. Tell ya the truth..been so long since i started studying..MY HEAD HURTSS!!! hahaha...anyways.. i get to meet 3 sweet gals during the course..Dayang, Puvana, and Ana... God they are darlings..such darlings..Im glad I managed to make new frens..


Speaking of new frens.. I made one special one recently...and I think he makes me see things in different perspective..and I trully respect him for that..Yeah yeah..I know that you will be thinking...here goes ana and another guy kinda story... Well..this time its different..


First thing first.. Im still wearing the first ring that my ex-fiance bought for me...on my right hand..to constantly remind me of the mistakes i have made in the past..it helps.. other than that the ring holds no value to me..my engagement ring is missing..dunno where it landed..lol..


Okie..so back to this person..I shall call him Vin..Aka Alladin... Why Alladin??? The story will unfold soon..


So..Alladin stays in the east..(near me) and the magic carpet which Alladin rides is a very very nice KRR... He is currently serving his NS..SCDF..and looks very very adorable in his uniform..haiz...( dunno why i really got a thing for SCDF uniforms)...



So..I(Princess Jasmine) get to noe him more and he too get to noe me.. At the beginning stage.. i found him annoying..lol..pester pester..then one fine off day.. I decided to give him a chance..so we went out riding on the magic carpet.. and..it trully surprised me...



He was all gentlemanly and all..yes yes.. i know u will tell me..well gal.. first time sure all guys will be gentleman..sure.. i believe..but recently, the guys i went out with are far from gentleman.. I remember one of them pulling off the rubber band off my hair rudely despite me sternly telling him not to!! Another one assumes that i should be free when he is and constantly call him to make appointments to see him... the other one is older then me by a year..but is sooo childish!!! Oh gawd...SO meeting Alladin is like a breath of fresh air...



We went to Vivocity...walk walk..mamam at long john silvers..get to noe him and all.. well..what I learned is that he is intelligent..and sometimes.. I dun see much of his kinda people.. Back in NYP..the guys i date dun have any logic sense or use chim english or can relate to my theories..but he can..and he seems to noe alot...and its all facts..not rubbish kinda knowing okie..

So...soon enough...we started seeing each other more regularly..I wanted to be honest with him in the beginning of our friendship so i told him everything that had happened to me honestly.. and SURPRISINGLY..this is what happened...

Do u people remember last time I kept on complaining that my Ex-fiance L.O.V.E.S to dwell on my past..whether it is relevant or not...well..Alladin..even before i open my mouth to start..he already tell me that it is my past and he dun care about my past..its my present and my future that matters.. well.. to make it open thru us.. I told him everything..every single thing that has happened to me..and he knew..so after that day..nothing about my past was brought up..nothing at all..even if I were to talk about it.. like knowing this guy or that guy or whatever..it holds of no value to him.. he sees me for what i am now.. and i trully appreciate that in him.. sometimes his actions can just make someone melt la..

Since then..he has been sending me to work regularly...even courses...and took care of me..and god..i love every moment of it..he is really sweet..and we have this unspoken understanding that relationships are not to be mentioned cause he knows i am not ready for all this yet.. I just need someone who can back me up in life and bring smiles and happiness to me..so here comes Alladin... Why I called him Alladin cause he loves to say Its A Whole New World to me... What he trying to tell me is that life after my Ex-fiance is a brand new world for me...and I believe in that..so it makes him Alladin..and me being Princess Jasmine..lol.. and of course..his KRR is our magic carpet..and off we see the world in a new light... haiz..

He trully sends shivers down my spine at time with the thoughts he expresses or the words he says.. like for example..the brand new world theory..or even when he starts hearing things about me..its nothing fer him.. quote " let people talk what they want to talk la.. who cares.." I LOVE THAT ATTITUDE!! ITS WONDERFUL!! I have been trying to get this theory into my Ex-fiance for so long and its impossible..whereas Alladin has it naturally..its own Own New World..Haiz.. I have alot to say about this God Send Angel..But..Well.. I think I shall let my future posts do the talking..

Sometimes..in life.. by meeting the wrong people.. U appreciate the right ones infront of u... and I appreciate..Alladin being in my life... Your So Sweeett!!

True Friendship Knows No Boundaries..No Looks..No Judgements...No Criterias...If its meant to be..its meant to be...Alladin..Aka Vin...You are really appreciated to be in my life..and currently..Your the reason each time I smile...Thanks for being there for me thru my stormy weathers....Someday...Who noes someday... All your favours would be returned... CHELLAMZ!!LOL!!

Today, I went to work...heard Reshmonu on the radio and immediately i cheered up.. the wonders a song can do to someone... it made me happy the whole day...Hey Waley Waley Hey!!

Drove to work...happy happy...reach work..saw a few new faces...turns out they are trainees..so we got new people in the team...nice bunch they are...they come from the same FI as I do...remind me the days of my tracom.. i miss it so much... I miss bad nad raima...jas..the rest of the gals in bravo coy.... my squad boys.. i miss them all..

I miss the training and the scolding and the nonsense all...hehehe... funny im missing all this now right... haiz...ill do anything to rewind my life...anybody got a remote?? i want to rewind back to my poly days..the luxury of life.. then i make sure i will avoid reggie... wont want to meet him and repeat all the mistakes.. he was a mistake...a bad nightmare...which i am glad i woke up from..

Well.. lets not talk about that piece a shit.. lets talk bout happier things.. now i dunno la.. im wondering whether to continue my service or change jobs.. i want to try Stewardess and see the world.. my parents give me their blessings already.. GOD I LOVE MY PARENTS! they are more and more supportive now... haiz... love them... oklay..will update more later.. adioz!~

Well..usualli i will think before i blog about certain issues but this time i just want to babble..

I just came back home from vivocity... I had to go to Pet Safari to get food for FiFi...her food is running out and she been complaining day and night..got her some toys too... but before i went to the shop.. i needed to draw money.. so i dunno where the heck the POSB was..so i went to the information coutner....there were 2 ladies mending the counter...so i approached the first one.. i have no idea what she was doing..she was talking to the lady infront of her and i had waited behind her for about 10 mins.. and all i wanted to ask fer was Where is the POSB... after some time i got bored so i just said sorry and i asked her..where is it...WAH...she said sorry she is dunno..ask the other gal... she is busy with the current transactions....she was sooooo snobbbishhH!!! Thank god the other gal was better... she told me nicely... so i had to walk quite a distance to get there.. i withdraw and walk passed the info counter and I STILL SEE THE SAME TWO talking dunno bout what...wahhhh...talking about service!!!

Since I was there and Roshan wanted to meet..I asked him to see me there la... so we ate..then walk walk...talk talk...then head home... nice guy la Roshan..he is a cool fren.. we are kinda looking for gf and bfs for one another..so any gal interested in my fren roshan...do tell me.. ill intro u..hehehe...

Haiz... my chest still hurts...i cant really breathe that properly still.. its like someone is sitting on my chest...maybe its that bastard who is doing this to me..he has happily went to thai with that gal of his.. so fast fer him to move on and he claimed he still loved me.....hahaha FARKED!! Okla... Time to go get some shut eye and take my medications...take care people..

Well..This morning, once again I was whisked to Changi Hospital....Sick... I had suffered some kinda chest pain for quite some time and i kept quiet about it thinking it will go away..it wasnt asthma or whatever... I know how asthma feels.. like feeling is very painful whenever i take a breath...

So on Tuesday night, I went to a private doctor after work and he told me that it was due to stress and I should see a psychologist about my problems...WHAT A LOAD OF BULL!! I went back home with some pain killers.. then the next day while working..the pain became unbearable so i had to rush to the hospital... X rays and ECGs and scan was done and it turned out I had some kinda Inflamation or what something medical terms...

The doctor gave me injections and medications and put me under observation... I was then discharged and brought home by my parents... took more medications and slept the whole day.. Now i feel okay..not fully recovered but okay...

Haiz... I went to sit at the clinic and hospital all alone.. makes me even more depressed... I wish i had someone with me...haiz...

Well..i do hope i recover soon... looks like i cant go for my IPPT tomorrow as planned..will rest at home and in the evening i would be meeting Roshan... Will update more tomorrow.. take care and god bless..

MUNIYA!! U take care too okay... looks like both bees are sick!!!

Ok...Finally..my family set me down and told me that i got issues..and that i am something like crazy or depressed or whatever crap.... why is everybody after me.. haven i gone thru enough.. can u just leave me alone... can everybody.. PLEASE leave me alone... before i leave all of u and go away.. please.. just leave me alone..

Let me be what i want to and stop judging me.. stop thinking i need help.. stop saying that u will be there for me and what crap.. yes.. u can be there.. can u carry my burdern?? can u rectify my mistakes?? what can u do?? just say normal shit like tings will get better... normal shit like i should smile and im wonderful and all.. CRAP!!

I got nothing to live for and everything is a waste.. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!! And please.. stop asking me out.. I think I had enough of outings and all.. I tot all this can cheer me up and bring my spirits up.. but no.. its not working.. i hate u people... please.. leave me alone... biarkan aku bersendirian... I dun need ur pity or ur stupid words... like i said... LEAVE ME ALONEEEE!!!

Okie...reality has finally sunk in... Im alone... Im Single... Im....Depress...

But i keep telling myself.. its for the best.... Well.. I hope it is..I am now going to be totally honest..

I had taken advantage of the 2 years we were together.. I am so used to having u by my side always..I know no matter what.. u are there.. ups or down... And i do admit.. i do miss having u by my side.. but well.. once again..things happens for the best..

Now i learned that you have moved on.. I am happy... atleast she can keep u happy..she can do things which i noe i cant... the best part... I heard ur family accepted her in just like that...well..thats wonderful... u people wont have to go thru what we went thru.. I remember having to chase u home so u wont get locked out by your parents cause it hurts me so much to see u sleeping out side..and u being stubborn... still waited outside....

I remember all our hopes and dreams... what we aim to achieve.. u were going to try and get a car..build ur business..with me by your side... but now... better... You got ur dream car..and the business and all.... U are in better terms with your family...wonderful.. I guess... I was bad for u.. Your parents hated u when u were with me.. i had cause lots of damages... well.. it okay... like i said.. things happened for the best..

I am not going to put all the bad things that had happened to me.. cause it is not me..and its not right.. I dun think its wise...

Kiran, if ur reading this.. I wish u and him all da best.. Its will take sometimes to crack a nut like him... but it worth it.. trust me.. His mother, well.. she may have a laser mouth... but she had a heart of gold..even though she had pushed me really up the wall with her antics.. well... thats her.. noise only.. but heart is nice..

His dad, What can i say about a man whom i only met once and only said Hi Uncle.. I dunno that man much.. but i noe he is nice.. cause.. he plays his cards well.. meaning.. u play by the rules.. u win.. no one else.. I had constantly advise him but if only he would listen to me ONCE.. he would have achieved what he got now much earlier...

His sister..wow..she is a wonderful character... gal.. i got to say.. that the outings we had and all.. it has nothing to do with him.. i treat u as one.. and i think ur a nice person..stop fretting about urself.. you are beautiful... dun be so obessive about certain parts of u... just be urself and shine.. ur smile and heart will win any hero that comes along.. but of course.. he has to go thru the heroes in ur life.. the two brothers... Just look at bob.. he was slobby and all.. hehe ( sorry bob) but look at him now.. driven and all.. a fab bod to suit his personality... lol..

Haiz... well.. i am learning to move on.. My mistakes are known..and I shall learn from it.. I hope I find my happiness soon...

I learned that if i were to ever fall in love again, I would be close to his family first.. as frens.. I want to get to noe his family.. meet them... mingle.. I believe I marry into the family.. not just him.. I really want to get on well with his mother.. be best of frens.. then happiness will come in.. if he has sisters.. better still.. i would get gal frens..something which i dun have much...

I would give my all... my everything.. of course.. i would look for trust, hope, happiness and freedom.. all this should be in the relationship... i really learned alot from the past..and now its time to move on.. time to look up and face the world... alone... all... alone.....

Hmm...what did i do yesterday.. well.. sadly, syera cancelled our plans to go clubbing so im stuck at home.. doing nothing much... running errand for my mum

Then in the evening, I was online..doing nothing with an old fren of mine from poly days came online... both of us were bored... decided to go and catch Indiana Jones.. it wasnt so bad.. its was fun actually the movie... Got Back home at around 2am, then went to bed.. Did nothing much today too... just slacked at home la...

Im still waiting to fix a date with Munira to go out with her... Its been a long time man...
I checked out a certain somebodys blog after a long time...Well..Apparantly, A relative of mine, whom i dunno who.. stumbled upon his blog and called up my mum and questioned her.. I was out at that time and I dunno what the heck happened..I dun regularly go and check what the asshole is doing.. One thing confuses me... all the person's entry has got something to do with me.. Why so.. is that Somebody still hung up on me?? That person is also comparing me to the persons current relationship..haha..funny aint it.. i dun get it.. compare till the last details.. when a person does that.. doesnt it means that he still wants the other?? haha..

I had a nice surprise when i got home when i see my mum all upset..dunno what happened also la.. well.. this is my life.. confusion!~

I think this person and his grp of frens is really petty... very very petty.. One min this person tells me that this person is marrying gal A.. the next moment.. its Gal B.. so whose lips is the one that is soiled.. I dun get it la.. well that is life isnt it.. life is such...

One weird thing about me is that.. lately i love saying life is such.. Life is just such.. and another problem is that.. I am beginning to hate men... Men in general.. of course except my family members that is... Last night.. I was chatting with one of my galfrens.. well.. we tried to decode logics..stupid logics..

Like certain men says that its hard for them to express their thoughts and feelings thru words.. but its soooo easy for them to express through rummaging into the gals clothing or panties... stupid aint it..

Certain men also thinks that if they like the gal, their ego is big enough to tell them that the gal shud like them too.. since the gal is talking to them as frens...RUBBISH!!

I wanted to paste certain logs of our discussion here.. but im afraid she might get angry at me.. lol..

Haiz.. I dunno what else to say la.. I have practially gave up on relationship issues and men.. Right now.. they are only childish, immature, stupid.. indecisive.. illogical.. and dunno the meaning of honour and respect.. some demand respect.. but dunno how to gain it.. some are hung up on issues like freedom..and blame it all on freedom.. they dun see outside the box..

The weird part is..when they are talking to the gal, they say it their fault.. they noe its their fault.. they shud this and they shud that.. but when it comes to the world.. of its all the bitches fault.. the bitch is in the wrong..

Well.. I thank god that im not the kinda gal who bad mouths or vents my angers on a person openly at my blog and bring them to shame.. i only talk in general.. I dun specify..

Lastly, I know its the past.. mistakes have been done.. memories have been made... Whatever had happened..shud be kept among us.. not publicised and let the world noes... Only mature adults can think that way unfortunately... Young Boys.. Please...Grow Up.. Please...

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